I’ve always felt an urgency to document my thoughts or feelings as close to raw as possible, be it through painting, drawing, writing, or video. It’s been that way since I was a kid. With painting and abstraction, you’re able to connect and reveal the unconscious in a very direct way. There’s a physicality to it. This allows me to be violent, loving, fragile, and erratic, right then and there with little space for calculation or pretense.
When I learned about action painters and abstract expressionism during my studies, it just felt like home. The figure has always been an anchor point. I need it to contextualize or conclude whatever I was reflecting on in the process. It gives me direction and allows me to find myself and recognize some sort of humanity. When it’s solely strokes and color, I tend to get a bit lost and it becomes tricks on a surface.